I am sinking like a stone in the sea

This is what goes off in my head whenever my nipple ring gets caught on my bra or my shirt. FUCK, IT HURTS.

my future child

The hardest part from now on out is knowing that you are the only one that I want to be with. You are the only person I have those feelings towards. It is terrible knowing that I can’t have you anymore. I wish it weren’t true. I hope that you understand where I am coming from, and why I had to make the ultimate decision. It was for the both of us. I have realized over this past year that I can’t convince you of anything. I have realized that if you are going to sit there and tell me that you love me and that all you want is me, yet not make any effort what-so-ever, means that it most likely will not change. What ever you are not willing to change, won’t. You can’t sit around and wait for it to change. You say that you are happy with me.. I’m so sorry. It’s my fault for allowing you to think that the way that you were treating me was “okay”. It wasn’t… You aren’t the only person in the world with the greatest amount of work to do.. It doesn’t take much to make things work. I’m sorry. You say that you are happy, and that us moving on isn’t right. You know why? Because you are used to me making that kind of time for you, going out of my way to make you happy, yet you sit on your ass and don’t give me anything in return. A relationship is a partnership not a singleship. I am so sorry that you think that that is alright. It’s not. You said so yourself, I am not happy. And you have not done one thing to convince me that you want to change it. You do that for the ones you love, ryan.. I’m sorry that I can’t help you get that through your head. It’s my fault too. I can’t believe, after all of the chances that I have given you, I let it go on for this long.. That is why I think that it was time to move forward. Just know that it is not because I don’t love you. That is not true at all. Just know that I am not moving to something else. I am simply saving myself from the constant hurting. You’d think that if you loved someone, you’d want to make them feel special? That’s all that I ever wanted. I was always there for you. For EVERYTHING. If I was busy, I found a way. But for you, it wasn’t the same way.. I am so sorry for ever causing this fate. I just can’t do it anymore. I love you more than anything, and it kills me to try and let things go. But it is pushing me off of a cliff and I am about to hit the rocks. :/ I hate giving in.. But it is what is best. You probably won’t ever read this, and you probably won’t try to talk to me because as you would say “you don’t love me anymore” or “i am worthless” but you are not. You mean the most to me out of anyone. I only wish that you would either help me through this, or help me let you go because it is not fair. :( I can’t anymore. I’m sorry. You’ll probably never talk to me again, but I still wait for that day.. It probably won’t happen. :( Just know, I love you.

Fucking perfect art, man.

My tumblr husband since day one. Oh my god.

Beautiful man